Stay or Leave....?

I am going to answer that question in a few weeks. I know, life is never easy. No job with no difficulty. Problem I face, sometimes, have broken my heart. But then I know, I will face the same problem in other place. I have to strong I think. I am not always perfect, but I have to stronger and stronger than before

Worried

I am always worried for not doing my work well. When I was a journalist, I always fell bad when I thought I didn't perform well. Some people said that I was quite good but may be I was too perfectionist.

I feel the same way with all kind of my activities. I want everything perfect. But, may be I should realize that I am not perfect so I can't do everything perfectly. I can make mistakes and I should forgive my self. Making a mistake is just so normal.

Survive Your Life

After thirty years of my life, now I know how to survive my life. I think what important is accepting the present situation. It can be hard and annoying sometimes. But we need to accept the situation and try to find the solution to solve the problem.

Sometimes, we are  really desperate and don't know how to solve our problems. But the fact is nothing we can do except accepting the present situation. That's my opinion.

Welcome Back My Blogs

I am happy because my blogs weren't missing anymore. I still can write here, my English blog. I was really surprised when my blogs were missing, I was curious, what really happened at that time.

By the way, tomorrow is my last holiday, and on thursday I am going to back to work. I am not really sure if I am already a good teacher or not but I'm still trying. I hope I can be one in a year.

I enjoy working in my new office. I enjoy the paradigm used there. But I still need to work hard to be  a good teacher

It's never easy

It's never easy to become a newcomer in a company. You have to face many challenges. I hope I can be patient enough to face all of the difficulties.

No job with no difficulty. I have decided to be career woman. I should be tough.

Being a teacher

I used to be very happy as a English teacher. Sometimes, I was having a problem with my students, but it is okay. I still enjoy teaching English. But now, I am an social studies teacher. I need to learn a lot to be a good social studies teacher. I hope I can be one in one year

Do you have your own room?

I am questioning about what a family is for. When we form a family, we think that we are going to be happier. But it doesn't always happen. Forming a family means you multiply origin problems from each family. Forming a family means you need to go in side and share a very narrow room.

If you decide to be alone, at least, you don't have to share anything to anyone. You can manage your own life. Probably, you can be happy too.

English Teacher

I love to be English teacher because I love the culture behind English language. This language give the chance to the speakers to express their opinions and also their feelings. Something that I can't find in my mother language Balinese language and Indonesian language

What friends mean to you...

Why do we need to make friends? I think because we want someone who makes our life meaningful. I want to enjoy my time with my friends. If some friends make me get mad and uncomfortable, I think it's no use to be friends with them any longer.

I have my own opinion about my life, noone can force to change my opinion. You can disagree with me, so can I. Let me make friends with everyone that I like...

Your happiness is only in Your Heart

No happiness really comes from others. Don't hope to get happiness from others. Find it in your heart. Because you only belong to yourself.

Thinking About Life

These days, I often think about life. I get a better job with better salary. I get what I want. But, why am I not that happy that I think before. May be, it is because, our thought lead us to think it is never enough.

Human life is becoming more and more complicated. Even, it is hard to be simple. It' totally silly. If we can be happy easily, why should we make our life so complicated?

Sleeping Problem

I feel so lucky this year. I earn more money by teaching and the same time, I earn money too from my writing. I get some awards from reputable organizations. But, I don't know, I feel so difficult to sleep.  I am always sleepy, but I can't sleep at all.

Observer

Yesterday was not my best day. ELTI Academic Manager observed me while I was teaching. Teaching's becoming a bit depressing. But okay, everything run quite well and I didn't make stupid mistakes. But I was a bit mad about her. She seemed to blame me on what is not my mistake. She looked like Ms. Perfect, and didn't understand teaching dillema I face. She must come more often I think, so will know what really happen. Go out, Miss, don't just sit on your table?

Begin Working in Jakarta

Previously, I felt a bit upset about my family moving to Jakarta, but now I feel better. I start working at ELTI Gramedia with better salary. I am back to be working woman, and the same time I am a writer. I continue attending my book launches. This will be the perfect blend. I love it. I promise to my self to be more greatful for my life.

Put My Life Back in Order

My life seems messy this month because I and my family should prepare everything to move to a new house in Jakarta. Today, the twelve day I am in Jakarta, I begin teaching in ELTI Gramedia English Course. I love that, because that means my life is moving on, not stuck at a messy point.

By today, I promise to put my life back in a right order. I will be teaching, writing and running a new bussiness. In Jakarta, I hope that I will get  a better income than in Bali. So, I will become a great writer and an indepent woman

Moving to a new house..

This is the fifth house I am living in since I get married. That means I have moved five times in less than six years. Moving to a new house is not a pleasant thing, even though sometimes you get some new energy and some fresh air from your new house.

My last house is perfectly cozy and clean. But we still rent this house and the owner doesn't sell this house. In fact, we love this house so much. I hope that we will find a perfect house and not moving a lot again

Dealing with four years-old children

It's not really easy to understand  four years-old children. Sometimes, they look very smart and speak like mature people. They argue like mature people do. But sometimes, they are so stubborn and annoying.

I don't really know how to deal with my daughter. I want to be a good mother, but sometimes, she makes me terribly mad. So, sometimes, I yell at her, but then I regret it so much. I am in search of a better method to educate my daughter. I hope I will find that soon.

So early in the morning

What to do, if you wake up so early in the morning? I don't know what to do now. It's about five o' clock in the morning. I am in front of my computer trying to do something important.

Actually, I am in a big dilemma. Am I going to be full-time worker or still being part-time worker like what I am doing now? I want to earn more money by my self. I want to more independent woman. To be that woman, I have to be full-time worker. But in the same time, I still feel terribly worried leaving my daughter alone with her baby sitter. I don't know what to do.

I am going to miss Bali so much

In one month I and my family are going to move to Jakarta. I am going to miss Bali so much. I am going to miss the clean and fresh air and not too crowded traffic in Bali. In fact, I have ever decided to continue living in Bali my whole life.

May be, one day, we will have the chance living in Bali. May be, I will run my own bussiness and I will still writing my novel and short stories. I hope my dreams will come true

Moving Back to Jakarta, Oh No....

One year living in Bali it is just so nice and cozy. But suddenly we must move to Jakarta again. Oh no... I can't imagine to live in terrible traffic jam Jakarta and spend most of my time in the street.

Suddenly, I have to quit from my present job at Primagama English and start looking for a new job. I also have to find a new school for my daughter, Disa, in fact, I already like her present school.

Oh no... I have to adapt to this new situation. My family have to move to Jakarta in one month. What a short notice...